Serenity

很久沒看電視劇看得那麼全情投入
想哭, 不是因為什麼死別, 卻是那種牽絆
John is the anchor of Sherlock
but Sherlock is also the centre of John

John is Sherlock's GPS, he can always find himself when he is with John
Sherlock is John's motivation to live, he can always find the excitement from cases and amazement from Sherlock.
They discover themselves through each other.

"Take my hand!"
The hand, taking a good man back to his favourite battlefield, a wise man back to the world he belongs.
They trust, without proofs.
Mrs. Hudson, like the mother of them both.
Molly, was like an outsider, but in fact a great support when there is no other resort.
Mycroft, betray not because of hate. He loves Sherlock, but he couldn't give up the whole country, in which there are a lot of people, who care.
Lestrade, plays safe to entertain all possibilities, but this would be the last one he wants to believe in.

Finally, the hero realises, he is not isolated. He is back to the ordinary world, in which he finds his whole self. No matter the genius, the ecstasy, and the pain.

I love BL, yaoi, but this is nothing about these.
The two are inseparable, not of romance, but love and trust, which seems impossible.

Failure is not frightening, but the truth that even for myself, I am not reliable. Pathetic doesn't describe the result, but the person. I am not haunted by anything, except myself.

往昔志, 今已窮.
他朝夢, 歷劫萬重.

以前, 聽到這種話, 我會說他愚蠢
現在, 聽到同樣的話, 我什麼都說不出口
有人說, 施虐者, 很多時都在被虐中長大
有些人, 內心的狂暴, 只是因為最初的純真被活生生扼殺
又或是, 最初在心中的種子在各種摧殘中萌芽
要怪罪當初做錯事的人嗎?
可悲的是, 這種事情根本沒人想發生
以前教小孩子都是同一個樣子, 大人只能憑藉經驗過的方式去教育下一代, 因為在他們的記憶中, 沒有更好的方法, 又或是說, 沒有其他的辦法
可能個體的不同, 同一種做法會產生不同的效果
有人茁壯成長, 有人在悲痛中生出另一個黑暗面

我明白教養孩子很難, 非常難, 比在大企業當CEO可能難上百倍
但請各位父母不要忘記, 在年幼的孩子心中, 你們就是他世界中的一切
你們就是他的上帝, 他的神
每一句話, 每一個動作, 都是他的真理
要是你們都不能給予他期待的愛, 要是你們只會用拳腳體罰, 孩子的安全感要在哪裡找?
記住, 他們只有父母可以相信, 他們都無處可逃
就算旁人流露著再多的愛, 也不能補償他損失的不安
在將來, 父母在物質上提供再多, 再好, 嘗試給予快將泛濫的愛, 也未必可以救贖任何事
因為那最初的烙印, 已在心坎裡的最深處, 或者已經無人能夠再觸及...

2012到來了!!
願望呢? 還是那些吧
世界末日? 我相信沒那麼快啊
至於今年的確多了一個期待, 就是真的想看一眼UFO!!! 嘛, 那些通靈訊息云云的不都是說今年的目擊個案會增加嘛

想尋找協助, 但又覺得不應由借他人之手面對困難
覺得自己有問題, 但又覺得這只是逃避責任的藉口
是我真的太過懦弱
還是自己妨礙自己找到出路?
很迷惑...